| Well ive been sitting, waiting, wishing... |
[24 Nov 2009|04:24pm] |
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THAT THIS CLASS WOULD FRICKEN START SO I CAN GO HOME.
I've been in the science hall for about 2 hours waiting for class. I got out of my first class early because the y drive was down. So here i sit, i did my lab, in which case i studied a bit too incase there's a quiz, and i went through facebook for about 45 mins, and alas class still isnt for another 7 minutes and counting. IM going to finish this entry there.
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[09 Oct 2009|04:30pm] |
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jk jk
but recently added to the possible transfer schools, chapel hill.
Now i just need to find a few in MA, so i REALLY have a back up plans.
GAH
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| fuck |
[16 Sep 2009|06:38pm] |
Im utilizing every venue of free expression because i cant say anything outloud. And i dont even know if i fully believe what just happened, is really going to last. I just know the longer its unresolved, the more i begin to fall apart. its been about an hour, and i cant believe that those could potentially be my last words to you. It wasnt even in person.
"I need a fix cause im going down."
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| Why is my summer over? |
[16 Aug 2009|02:45pm] |
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I still cant believe i did it.
I remember being so worried, and now i cant even believe i second guessed it.
This summer was just what the doctor ordered. While the academic aspects of my life are coming to, the social part seems to be falling apart. After this summer i'm ecstatic to make bonds with my classmates. New people is where its at. Im tired of the same old stories, and it was the bonds i made this summer that made me realize how much ive been yearning for that new connection. Tyler and i went from 0-inseparable in a matter of days. I brought him home with me and made him apart of the family. ive told him ive loved him countless amount of times, he is/was so important to this summer. He has his faults, but i must say in deepens the relationship. Cody, the sweetest most hilarious guy ive met in a long time. He's real and our personalities just click. Mia, Megan, and Sara... remind me of that crazy girl in me. They are so comfortable in themselves and i vibe off that. Blaize and i also reconnected this summer and ive seen a side of him that ive only heard in stories. He is such a loving person. Watching him play with baby charlie nearly brought tears to my eyes. And when we had the family night on the porch, just me blaize, katie, ell, and tyler (for a little) he broke it all down for us. And Miss Katie "Bunny" Beth. OMG. Finally someone who REALLY does love too much like i do. Sentences would come out of her mouth about letting people go and caring and empathy that would put me into shock because i remember explaining them the exact same way. Finally, even Elliott..... We have reached a whole new new. if thats even possible for us. You are everything to me. Down to the nitty gritty i love love love love everything you do. From inspiring me to pissing me off, to helping me see and learn new ways. Keep challenging me. Forever ell.
I am so blessed. I've got my family. Ive got the Fredds. And i've got the Zabel's/Salsedo's/Chicka's/Murphy's clan. All of which i love whole-heartedly.
Im having a flashback to the beginning of elliott and i's friendship....look at all of the love we have brought to eachother just simply by loving eachother. We have become apart of families just by being best friends.
No one can ever convince me that Elliott and i weren't destined to meet eachother.
I need to make peace with Falmouth and just accept that im going to be there for the fall. But it is incredibly hard. I dont want all the negativity to weigh me down. I've been in such a good place all summer (for the most part) and ive just been peaceful. I want to keep that mindset.
Shelter Island, i love you!
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[10 Aug 2009|11:03am] |
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"I don't care" and click are running through my head endlessly.
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[22 Jul 2009|06:40pm] |
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I just got off of work and im chillin in the bed in shorts and a tank. fan directly on me. coughing a lung up because i have a bronchitis infection and no antibiotics. Ell is at dinner with his mom, so im eating home with the fam, lasagna. holler. taking a nap and then heading to the pridwin for some cocktails, live music, and rich people who have been drinking daiquiris in the sun all day. its weird being near/a part of the Hamptons.
Im now a barista in training for the rest of summer. lets just say it DOESNT come naturally, holy shit.
Reenacted a scene from 13.
ANN'S BDAY .
Was hoping to be home, but i just started another job.
SUMMER IS ALMOST OVER.
got lots of financial aid. taking 4 classes.
FAN-TASM life experiences.
IM supposed to go to falmouth to pick up a bike.
we'll see if that ever happens.
being asexual, is seriously not going to work out.
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[07 Jul 2009|12:45pm] |
I had the most interesting dreams back.
I need to gain the control back
Everything is la la la, in whatever land.
Are we being
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[17 Jun 2009|01:06pm] |
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Well hello!
Things are going well. I hear more about this job Elliott got me tomorrow. I made two new friends thus far. Hahah, im pretty happy with it. My moms case is settled so ill be driving again soon enough.
I am a rather jealous person, gotta work on that.
Im going to spill myself all over this island with hopes that those who absorb it will enjoy me.
That is all,
and as always, love yous
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[10 Jun 2009|10:43pm] |
bahhhh!
so much cleaning cleaning cleaning.
So much previously dormant dust chasing me around. I cant believe i was able to even sleep down here. I am wheezing for christ sakes.
So i wasnt going to do anything tonight besides clean and listen to bad music (xm 20 on 20), but, since im staying an extra day, i decided to go to a bonfire for a little 3 hour cleaning break fun in like a half an hour. Then back here to clean some more. Sleep. Then, tomorrow i am a prisoner to the basement (AND HOPING FOR RAIN) so it wont suck so bad.
im all braided.
I cant believe im leaving for the summer friday.
scratch that, yes i can!
Hahaha this should be an interesting summer. I plan on taking the jitney into the city a ton.
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| bike riding |
[19 May 2009|06:52pm] |
That's it.
Missing link, and cure to all of my anxiety, sadness, anger, blah blah blah who gives a hoot, BIKE RIDING.
this summer, is going to be the best one yet.
im an open book.
again.
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| Schedule |
[11 May 2009|07:43pm] |
Monday night: Cape Cod Idol @ Hyannis BBC
Tuesday: Class 11-2.
Make up tests 2-4
Play Paper and Character parellel analysis until ............
Maybe some tuesday night shenanigans, probably not
Wednesday: Paper
Math final study session
Work 4-close
Thursday: English final 1030-1230
Spring Awakening in the bean?
Some sort of birthday celebration (probably not haha)
Friday: C-LAB
Math final 1:30-3:30
Work 4-close
Another semester done.
I have no idea when i'm going to the island. I was planing to go second/third week of june, so i can make graduation. Thing that really blows is whether or not ill have a car up and running by then. But, i could also just bike around the island. Its tiny and its not ridiculously hilly. Plus, i could use the exercise.
I need to discuss with Donald and Anna about moving there for the summer. Rent costs, all that jazz.
Things are going faaaast.
I gotta go get ready.
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| And so on , we go on |
[27 Apr 2009|01:42pm] |
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Play plan worked, yesterday was amazing.
I remember writing something about friends a few months ago. It was when Laura, Kandyce, Emily, and I were all fighting and i wrote that blurb. I mentioned something about true friendship has to do with being able to see eachother at your worst and be honest about it.
I've never felt closer to anyone in the world like i do these people. And most importantly, ive never been so close to solace than when i am with you el. You are the apple of my eye, the blood running through these veins, pulsating, and pumping my heart.
I love everyone here. And i don't want us to leave.
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On another note, yesterday after my semi depressing entry, i went to the play and sat next to this old man and his wife. The guy was really into the band (makes sense since they are from broadway.....ya thats how rich these people are) anyways, he was jamming out hardcore and i kinda wanted to just dance with him. It was cute at first, but it got disturbing during the scenes where he was just tap my thigh. Play was great and they added in some stuff since it was the last performance. I was expecting this great sobfest at the on because its the seniors last one, but they just walked off. So pissed.
About then i met back up with my girls and we stocked up on some beer and liquor and went to this incredible place that is on a hill over looking the ocean. it has stone walls and these pools of water, and all of these structures that are hollowed out. Then right next to it is this bamboo forrest and we climbed around in there for a few hours. Its the perfect place to go when you dont want to be found.
We grabbed el from the cast party by then, cruised, and kirstin cooked us dinner over el's mom's house. Pesto chicken alfredo. HOLY HELL. We then played the most epic game of scattegories, which led into so many stages of hysteria, to anger, to emotional, to absolute insanity, to laughing until tears. Our voices are completely gone!
We are NOT leaving.
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| Tis high 80's |
[26 Apr 2009|01:52pm] |
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...and i'm inside watching a special on vampire creatures.
Little less motivated. I'm having one of those days where it's taking me forever to be get out of a funk. This weekend has been great! I think I have returning home blues. I also think I'm on an insanity binge. This move is tweaking me.
I can barely make eye contact with you today.
See, fucking tweaked
I'm going to go to the play and get giddy Elliott's phenomenal in case you were wondering. Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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| Cr33p3r |
[17 Apr 2009|01:32pm] |
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A part of me was awakened in the desert, and i really want to continue exploring myself. The good thing about that is that journey can be done anywhere, but I'm really looking forward to the gradual transformation i undergo as i change my entire world.
"You were just Robin, this here is Batman!"
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